"I’m slowly realizing that the people I once thought were gods were just human all along."
m.k.

"I need intensive treatment and do not have the funds to make this happen. I want to have a life again. I want to fight, but I can’t do this alone."


Hey peoples! My incredible friend Ingrid Davidson desperately needs treatment for her eating disorder but lacks the money for it. Please take a minute to read her story and help if you can. She is a beautiful soul that the world would be darker without.

http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/campaign-for-ingrid-eating-disorder-treatment-urgently-needed

Even if you can’t donate, please reblog <3

Dear Me,

You want to live. Remember that.

You have people who love you and people that you love more than anything. You want to do it for them. The only way you can help them is by helping yourself. You have a life you like! You don’t know where it’s leading but that’s ok. You want that life. You don’t want to go back to treatment. Yes it was safe and warm there but you have those memories. Embrace them, let them be a part of you. Going back will not recreate that. You will not learn anything by getting sicker. It will not be “better than the first time”. There are things that you want to do in life. Vague aspirations and flickering bursts of light that you want to fight towards. You want to be strong but you don’t know how yet. That’s why you think you want to be weak. You don’t. You know how to be weak so it’s safe but it’s not what you want.

You want to live. You want to live. You want to live.

Grilled cheese time. This was not in the plan.

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Then again… it’s delicious.

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Still… I kinda feel like this.

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But melted cheese has a way of getting around Ed so 

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So I ate an almost complete dinner tonight for the first time in ages even though I was going to not eat anything because I have to get dairy queen tonight.

At first I was like

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But then I was a little

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And now I just don’t even know.

I miss my collar bones. Watching my friends get thinner fuels ED.

Look at that, they look beautiful. You could look like that too if you didn’t eat so much you fat cow. “

No ED, I have to eat.

But that much? Do you really Miriam? Do you really…”

I don’t know… I miss being sick…

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